Thursday, March 5, 2009

Thursday Update...

Where to begin? It been a rough past few days. Gavin is just a mess. There are so many issues playing into the overall problems that it is just so overwhelming trying to sort through it all. The biggest task at hand is to try and help Gavin get off these narcotics. He still is in a lot of pain but he is not handling the narcotics well and they seem to be causing more harm than good. We will start Gavin on a patch to help lessen the withdraw symptoms. Despite that fact that he have not yet started to wean him down on his meds he is already is pretty serious withdraw due to his tolerance build up. He wakes up shaking and in a panic and is sweating profusely. It's very sad to watch and add in the very real pain he is still experiencing and it's just almost to much to watch.


We have had a negative culture from the infected femoral line so we plan to head to the OR tomorrow to have him broviac placed back in. I don't' think anyone has any long term plans, we are just taking one day at a time.


I'm just about done with this place. I've just reached my limit. It's one thing to be stuck here in general but another to be stuck here and standing over your hurting child 24/7, not to mention trying your hardest to give Madison to attention and affection she needs and deserves.


Please pray that this patch works to lessens to horrible withdraw symptoms Gavin is having and also pray that we will find his pain to be less once we wean him down off the narcotics.

17 comments:

Kaitlyn said...

I don't know if this means much to you at this point, but I don't know what else to say other than: I'm so sorry, my heart hurts for you, and I'm praying for all 4 of you every single day. ♥

kat said...

Praying!

Hailey said...

I am praying daily~the Lord is in all of this and my prayer would be that you can feel him through all your pain.

Anonymous said...

I just wanted you to know that I continue to pray for Gavin too. Praying that even today, he would see a dramatic improvement--prayers for a peaceful little body, heart and mind. Prayers coming your way too, for strength to bear this heavy load. Hugs and blessings coming your way from Michigan.
Sofia

Anonymous said...

I can't even imagine and to be honest I don't even have words at the moment. But one thing I do know is that God has not forgotten Gavin or your family! He is there in your midst....may you and Gavin feel that and know that today more than ever before! Doing the only thing I can do...carrying you to our Lord in prayer!

Much love,
Wendy
Florida

Kristi Butler said...

I'm praying for you and your family. What would we do without our Savior to cling to?

grey like snuffie said...

I am praying...

Anonymous said...

We don't know one another but I want you to know that I am lifting you and your family to the Father daily. He knows what you are going through and has not abandoned you. I pray that you will feel his presence and that your baby will see relief from his pain and withdrawal.

Pam
Missouri

Anonymous said...

praying for each of you

brandi said...

praying for each of you... breaks my heart knowing sweet gavin is going through withdrawl from the pain meds. i'm so sorry he's having such a rough time.

~ Lisa @ AbidingThere~ said...

Many, many prayers for all of you. I am so sorry. Praying for mercy for that sweet baby. xo

Anonymous said...

I just found your blog through Carter's blog....I am so sorry for all that Gavin has been through....and your whole family too! I will continue to pray for him and for all of you....May he start to feel better and be pain free soon!

Kathy in Texas

Anonymous said...

I'm so very sorry. I know how long the days can be in the hospital and watching your sweet baby hurt. I wish there were a way to ease some of the burden from your heart. All I know to do is let you know so many are thinking of you and praying for you and Gavin each and every day. Sincerely, Trish Adams

conwaymom said...

Karen - I have thought about and checkin in to see how Gavin is doing everyday.

Can I just tell how sorry I am for where you are? If I could sit with you right now, I would just try to hold your hand and offer my love and support. I just wish I could fix all of this for you and your family. But I know that I can't.

So with that said - I promise to pray for Gavin specifically with what you have mentioned. My heart is so heavy for you. I can hear even through your typed words, the heaviness in your heart and I'm sorry.

I'm going to ask God to rain down some simple blessings on you and your family and cause His face to shine upon you and Gavin.

Hang in there....

Karen

Kelly said...

I found your blog through a friends blog and haven't stopped praying for you, both your children & your husband. The girls and I in my small group have been praying for Gavin as well...
As I was praying today the chorus from a song just kept coming up in my heart
"I need you Lord, I need you Lord
I need you, I need you..."
I realize you don't know me - but I know we serve the same God and you, your husband and Gavin NEED the Lord right now to come and do a miracle in Gavin's body, bring life & peace to your family (life back to "normal") and I just wanted you to know that I am praying just that for you...
Because He says that as we seek Him - we will find Him. So I believe that Gavin (and you guys) will find what you need in Him TODAY!!
My prayers continue to be with you!

Reesha said...

oh sweet Gavin hang in there, hang in there mommy daddy and madison, you are all doing well, even if it doesn't feel like it!

If you need anything from California, drop me a line!!

3saints said...

It seems whenever my son has surgery we can never get a handle on the pain, it's so hard. There is nothing worse than watching your child be in pain and for you to not be able to stop it...I'm so sorry...my heart aches for you all!

Warmly
Kate