Friday, October 30, 2009

What A Day...

Today has been such a crazy day.  My emotions have been all over the place, which leaves me at five o'clock ready to go to sleep.  This morning I faced the sudden reality that Gavin would be going to surgery for the last time.  Lots of tears followed, even down in the cafe while I was just trying to put the darn creamer in my coffee.


I get back upstairs and find that Gavin has a fever and the line cannot be put in due to the infection risk.  All the sudden my tears are gone and I, for the first time in our long three year journey with Gavin, was so glad to be spending the weekend here at the hospital.


A few hours later I got the chance to speak with an art therapist who will be helping out our family.  Madison and Gavin will be able to have sessions together and make some much needed memories while being in each other's presence without Adam or I.  The Therapist even mentioned being able to video tape some of the session that we could have to keep as memories -- that just about melted my heart and the tears started flowing again.


In the next couple of seconds a "code blue" was called on our unit and my heart went into I panic and a ran down to hall to find Gavin still sleeping.


My pounding heart was so relieved.


Madison and Adam came by to visit and our time together was too short.  It could have been longer but Gavin's pain is getting away from us again, which means that any noise stirs him up.  I could tell Madi was having a difficult time -- I hate to see that sad confused look in her eyes.


It's going to be a long weekend. 

23 comments:

Karen said...

Continuing to think of you and your dear family every day.

Cammie Heflin said...

Oh Karen, my heart is with you and thinking of you all of the time, blessings, Cammie

Anonymous said...

I so desperately want to help you all.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and make Gavin better, make Madi not sad or confused, and give you and Adam peace in your hearts.

Anonymous said...

my heart goes out to all of you!

blessings and continued prayer

Kathy in Texas

jocalyn said...

The art therapy sounds like a beautiful thing.

Your family continues to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Shari said...

Karen: I think of your family daily and pray away. I am sorry I haven't been commenting because I just don't have words! I am so sorry! I feel like I am failing you! I love your family.

grey like snuffie said...

I find myself coming to check out each new post holding my breath...praying. I KNOW God will do amazing things in Madi...so cool the art therapist. Moments of light in the midst of so much that sucks.

Christina said...

Is there anything I can do? I don't live that far away..... I could come by the hospital and just sit with you.....and even say NOTHING if you want.

I know that's weird, coming from a stranger..... but.... we are all like a small family here, us mommy bloggers & the offer is there for you if you need it or want it.

Love & prayers from Pooh's Corner

Baylee and Blair's page said...

Prayers continue from our family. I hope that you all can have a peaceful weekend with little Gavin! I also pray that Madison can understand what all is going on.

My heart continues to ache for you and your family! May God give you the strength and courage that you need at this time!

Hugs - Tiffany

Heather said...

Praying for a peaceful weekend.Hoping Mr.Gavin rests and that you all can squeeze in some of those famous Owens family, memory making moments.Love from California.

Aunt Becky said...

Praying and loving.

Misty said...

reading, feeling, and praying for you every day!

misty

JayCee said...

As I read this, tears are streaming down my face, and I have never even met your beautiful family. Please know that our prayers are with you. A recent Bible study I read said this: "When God allows extraordinary trials for His people, He prepares extraordinary comforts for them". I'm praying this is true for you.

Ellen said...

Thinking and praying for your family!

tripntwinmom said...

((((HUGS))))) to you. Praying that you find some comfort over the weekend with your sweet boy.

Anonymous said...

hugs and lots of prayers...your family is such an inspirayion to us all. Jen Lamkin

Anonymous said...

I meant to type INSPIRATION...jen

Mia said...

I feel so horrible for not stopping by in so long. My heart is wrenching, my tears flowing. I'm so sorry you are all going through this. So sorry. I wish I could say or do something to ease the pain your experiencing now and in the future.

Thanks to @PsychMamma for tweeting this post.

marina said...

i think and pray for you all everyday. you are all so incredible and beautiful and such an inspiration.

Reesha said...

I thank you for sharing your story with us, tho I am sorry that it is your story. I wish it was a different for your family!

My prayers are with you.

PJ said...

Hi Karen, My name is PJ. I follow Cathy's "Latte4me blog, and she asked us to stop by here and read your story. I have "PJ's Prayer Line and will include Gavin and the rest of your family in my personal prayers and on the Prayer Line. Just know that when the Prayers go up, glory and Blessings rain down. God answers prayers. You will be continually in mine. May God heal Gavin and give you strength to cope with the situation until He does.

PJ

Anonymous said...

Praying for you all this weekend. Glad to hear that the art therapist is working with Madi and Gavin, how cool is that!? What a blessing to make those special memories. Karen I can't even begin to know or understand your struggle or your pain. I lift you and your family up in prayer daily. Because of the work that I do I have a special place in my heart for kids with special needs. Again, thank you for sharing your lives with us here. And oh how I love the pictures!! Be blessed and be safe in Him! ~Debbie Heisey

therextras said...

Praying for Gavin, often, intently, over the weekend and beyond. Barbara