Today was the first day I walked through the doors of DuPont Children's Hospital -- without my little boy. There are so many different feelings going through my tired emotionally overloaded mind. It feels weird to enter that building as Karen Owens, not Gavin's mom. Even though I believe I will always be known as Gavin's mom or the Mom who never sleeps, as I found out I was known as for Gavin's first year of life by the nursing staff, there is part of my title that has forever changed.
I am now a mother who has lost her child -- I have joined the unwanted club of grieving mothers.
In an odd sort of way there is so much peace in walking through those doors-- after all this was a place of healing. We would bring Gavin through these doors not knowing if these were his last moments only to walk back out a week or so later with our little Boy still hanging on to life. I walk through these doors today as a broken women finding healing by giving back to the place who has given me so much. This place gave us safety and most of all it gave us more time with Gavin and more time as a family.
Today we were able to donate Gavin's infant warmer to the unit we lived on for the past three years it was a much needed piece of equipment as the current warmers on the unit as so old and annoying. I was also able to drop off a proposal for a support group we are going to be starting at duPont. We re very excited to launch this new support group early next year!
You all are rockin' the Babylegs Campaign -- keep up the great work and spread the news! We can keep those chubby legs warm this winter!
Photo Credit: Ryan Estes, NILMDTS