Yesterday Adam, Madison and I made a little trip to the city -- New York City! We had lots of fun, though it was a little weird not have our little boy with us. Adam and I both deserve gold stars for our previous trips with Gavin -- and his wheelchair. Who takes a kid in a wheelchair to the city, in the middle of winter and uses the subway with no wheelchair access -- that would be us and we loved every second of it!
This year was all about Madison. We parked uptown and went to the American Girl store where Madi's bitty baby got her annual overpriced Christmas dress and Adam and I made remarks about how crazy these people are for spending thousands of dollars on doll and doll accessories. These were the moments I wanted to do my scream of "don't you know I just lost my baby boy -- this is not what life is about." But don't worry I held it together.
After American Girl we strolled up 5th Ave in search of the Disney Store and FAO Scwartz where Madi wanted to play on the giant piano. It's crazy how Madi seems to know her way around the store and took us right to the piano -- even walking past the barbie section without hesitation!
Adam then made is dream stop at the huge Apple store where we both drooled and realized that we have no money. It was all good -- it's a huge store with a very cool elevator. We then ended out evening with a nice dinner and a few minuets admiring times square. We had a great time but it's always difficult -- wish our little Gavin was still here to be apart of our memory making. I saw so many cool little trinket toys that Gavin would have loved -- but then I remind myself that he probably would have been on a ventilator and not loving much of anything. Then I am once again filled with peace reminded of my little boy's healing and end to his suffering.
That's just how my mind works.