Yesterday Adam, Madison and I made a little trip to the city -- New York City! We had lots of fun, though it was a little weird not have our little boy with us. Adam and I both deserve gold stars for our previous trips with Gavin -- and his wheelchair. Who takes a kid in a wheelchair to the city, in the middle of winter and uses the subway with no wheelchair access -- that would be us and we loved every second of it!
This year was all about Madison. We parked uptown and went to the American Girl store where Madi's bitty baby got her annual overpriced Christmas dress and Adam and I made remarks about how crazy these people are for spending thousands of dollars on doll and doll accessories. These were the moments I wanted to do my scream of "don't you know I just lost my baby boy -- this is not what life is about." But don't worry I held it together.
After American Girl we strolled up 5th Ave in search of the Disney Store and FAO Scwartz where Madi wanted to play on the giant piano. It's crazy how Madi seems to know her way around the store and took us right to the piano -- even walking past the barbie section without hesitation!
Adam then made is dream stop at the huge Apple store where we both drooled and realized that we have no money. It was all good -- it's a huge store with a very cool elevator. We then ended out evening with a nice dinner and a few minuets admiring times square. We had a great time but it's always difficult -- wish our little Gavin was still here to be apart of our memory making. I saw so many cool little trinket toys that Gavin would have loved -- but then I remind myself that he probably would have been on a ventilator and not loving much of anything. Then I am once again filled with peace reminded of my little boy's healing and end to his suffering.
That's just how my mind works.
21 comments:
I think that's how most of our minds work. A million thoughts a minute, conflicting with each other and yet somehow making total sense. Maybe it's just a womans mind, I don't know for sure, but you just helped me feel a little bit more normal. Thank you for that. I am glad that you were able to enjoy your day in New York. The pictures are beautiful as always. Sending blessings your way.
You are a gold star Mommy and Daddy!
I think that is just how a mother's mind works. We always want our kids to be with us and happy. Unfortunately you can not have them both in Gavin's case. I am glad that the three of you enjoyed the day. The pictures are wonderful. I wish you all happy holidays.
I still cannot get over how amazing you, Adam and Madison are. The pictures in your blog are always so beautiful!
I have never been to New York....so I got to live vicariously through your family.
Seriously.... what am I waiting for? Thank you for inspiring {and you didn't even know you were} hehe
Merry Christmas from Pooh's Corner!
Yay!!!!!
WOw! The pics are amazing and you are amazing! I laughed out loud about how you and Adam would take Gavin on the Subway! That must have been so awesome for him to experience. You are awesome parents! I hope Madi and you have an awesome Christmas!
You both have a heart of gold...looks like it was a fun trip with your girl. i pray you have a blessed and beautiful Christmas!
I for one, think you have a simply beautiful mind (and heart!). Thanks for continuing to share you lovel family.
love the smiles (and the silly faces, too!)
So great you guys got to spend that time with Madison. Love the pictures. Perfectly normal to think that way...and thats okay because Gavin is always in your thoughts so everything will probably remind you of who he was. Take care Karen and may you,Adam, and Madi have a Merry Christmas.
You pictures are amazing!!! Glad you all got out and had a good time with your little girl!
I love love love the post and the pictures!!! will you please do photography post- when you get the spare time =)
Each day as I come to pray for Gavin I am more amazed by you then I can believe.You have such strenght. Today I am wishing your family a very merry christmas. Gavin will be with the angels this year,I'm sure if we listen we will hear the bells ring for when he gets his wings...It is a wonderful Life... Enjoy it with the ones you love.
Julie from Wi
I can't imagine how much you are missing your little boy. Glad you were able to enjoy your day in the city! You are a brave woman.
You are two of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. And Maddie is amazing herself...
Listening to Pandora tonight, and this song played. My thoughts went right to your family.
Perfect Peace- Laura Story
"Stay close by my side
keep your eyes on Me
though this life is hard
I will give you perfect peace
In this time of trial
pain that no one sees
trust Me when I say
I will give you perfect peace
And you'll never walk alone
and you'll never be in need
though I may not calm the storms around you
you can hide in me
burdens that you bear
offer no relief
let Me bear your load
cause I will give you perfect peace
Stay close by My side
and you'll never walk alone
keep your eyes on Me
and you will never be in need
though this life is hard
know that I will always give you perfect peace
I will give you perfect peace"
Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas. Knowing that Gavin is having a blast up in heaven celebrating Jesus' birthday with the big Man himself !
Ahhh, what an uplifting post and amazing parents. Enjoyed all your beautiful pics as usual. Im glad you both had a great time with your darling girl. Also sorry little Gavi couldnt be there with you. Wishing you and yours a Wonderful Holiday, continued prayers for your family-
Heidi & Jack 6, Mito
from Seattle :)
I'm so glad you had such a great trip together to NY! These pictures are great- Madison and the lollipop is just too sweet. I LOVE your new blog look! We still have you all in our thoughts and prayers, especially this week. We love you and are so blessed by you and your family and Gavin! Awesome that you got so many Baby Legs too!!! DuPont is going to flip! God bless :)
I love the new look. I am so glad you guys had such a great time in NYC!! Thank you for sharing the memories and experiences of your family!! The pictures you post are always an awesome sight to see!!
I love love NYC! I am way down here in TX, but I love going to New York. I was there for Christmas one year, and it's so beautiful
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