Now that Adam and I are not providing intensive care to our little boy our world has really opened up. Not that I wouldn't give anything to have my little Gavi back by my side, but since he died Adam and I are able to do so much more -- things that we have never been able to do. It really means that we are having to redefine our lives -- who we are and what we enjoy doing.
Adam keeps mentioning that he wants to learn how to cook -- I keep mentioning how I really don't want him to learn how to cook. Me -- I have so many things I want to do. I really want to take my photography to the next level, but of course my lack of confidence tends to get in the way. I really want to get my butt in shape and I have no excuse why that hasn't happened yet.
There are so many things I want to do and then there are the things God would have for me to do. I have no idea what those things are -- I don't even know if I really want to know right now. I guess I'll just try to get keep my heart and mind open.
For now -- I am getting my booty to the gym.