Adam and I are the pround owner of a 2001 Ford Windstar. I have to admit when we first purchased this van a few years back I was not a big fan of entering the "mommie driving minivans club", but it was a much needed step in our journey. We had purchased the van to prepare for Gavin's first wheelchair and after I started driving it around I quicky fell in love.
Our van does not have much monetary value but it holds so many memories of my little boy. We had used funds raised by our community to have the van equipped with a wheelchair ramp so Gavin could use his new power chair -- sadly Gavin died two days before we picked up the newly renovated van.
To get back to my point -- our van is great but has this crazy glitch where sometimes when I drive the airbag light starts blinking. Every time I see that darn light flashing I can help but flinch just waiting for the airbag to blow up in my face -- it never does but I still flinch every time.
This is a perfect example to help explain my current state in life. Things are so quiet, filled with lots of peace and normality of life, but there is still a huge part of me waiting for that airbag to blow up right in my face. After living in intense crisis for four years it is a huge adjustment to be living in peace. Could it be that this peace has been there all along -- just hidden underneath the chaos of our crisis?
It's something to think about -- something for me to think about. In the meantime I'll soak up all the peace I can get my hands on. It sure does feel good.