These past two weeks have seriously been a complete whirlwind. Life is really good right now, but sometimes really good living brings lots of stress. I'm the type of person who likes to take on the world -- if I'm asked to take on a project and I have the least bit interest in it, then I'm all over it! I like living this way -- it keep things exciting and I tend to just do better overall amongst the chaos.
This past Saturday, which happened to be six months since we said goodbye to Gavin, I spoke at a ladies event at a local church and had the amazing opportunity to share our story -- Gavin's amazing story. I consider it to be the hugest honor to share the incredible things that God did and is doing through both the life and death of our little boy. I shared the video I created which is basically a whole bunch of blog posts all put together to kinda recap our life these past few years. As I sat there and listened to the things that I had written almost 4 years ago, I was literally blown away. I sat there amazed as I recounted the journey God led us on.
I wasn't sure how this first Mother's Day would go -- after all how does one celebrate motherhood when part of very essence that makes me a mother is gone forever. As the day went by I started to realize that this day isn't bad at all, or at least no less difficult than any other day that I wake up without my little boy calling my name.
If anything Mother's Day was a special time for me just to remember that I am, and will always be a mother to two beautiful children. It became a day of reflection. A day of reflecting on the mother I am today -- the past that sculpted my present and that which is creating my future as a mother.