Yesterday was an amazing day. The day was filled with such a range of emotions but they were all good and all felt so good to feel. We started our day early at the cemetery where we spent some time as a little family celebrating our little boy's birthday. Madison made Gavin some special cards that we stashed in her secret spot underneath the vase on his grave stone. We lit his candle and sung to him talking about how we were all sure he was eating his own piece of cake up in heaven.
We then headed to the hospital to give the first portion of Gavin's Birthday Give, which I'll do another post on some time this week. We are still collecting new baby toys as well as donations up until the end of the month. You can click here to read more on that exciting opportunity.
Being at the hospital brought us a lot of comfort. It's funny how we really hated being at that place, but the same place we hated also brought us so much comfort, peace and joy. That building is filled with so many amazing memories -- the staff is a big part of our family. The hospital was part of our life, and after Gavin's death not only did we have to deal with the loss of our child but also the loss of our normal life -- as odd as our normal was.
We then ended the day celebrating in true Gavin style. We laughed and talked with friends and family, watched all the kids play out in the yard, had yummy food and just sat and experienced good life. Madison picked out a cake for Gavin and stood in her brother's place as we sung happy birthday and blew out the candle. She yelled up to heaven, "Gavin close your eyes," and then had us all yell "surprise!" She is an amazing five year old little girl who we want more than anything to celebrate and mourn her little brother in any way she feels necessary.
Thank you to everyone who helped make yesterday a special day for our family. Thanks for all the emails and messages. The community that we have found through the life of our son is truly amazing!