Monday, August 23, 2010

Finding a Smile...


There are so many times in our lives where we just have to step back and wonder what the heck is going on.  Sometimes life just seems to throw one curve ball after another -- and sometimes life just stinks.  This past week, life in the Owens' house has really been stinky -- literally.  

This past week we had some major issues with our septic system.  Unfortunately we live just a few miles outside of town -- away from those lucky people who can flush the potty and let the city take care of the rest.  We are in charge of our own crap -- and when the system fails, it really stinks.

Ok --  there are just so many funny jokes I could make, but I'll try to stick to my point.


In addition to the septic system failing, this week we also got one speeding ticket and also just recently had to replace all four tires on our car and fix some other major issue just for our vehicle to pass inspection.  Ugh.  Sometimes it all just seems so unfair.

But in all reality, it's just life.  It's just stuff that needs to be fixed.  It's really all no big deal.

During our poop crisis I had left the house to go to work at the church and I just had this feeling of total peace.  It's the very same peace that Adam and I often try to recount in the death of Gavin and during the intense suffering his 3 1/2 years brought.  It was in the midst of crisis after crisis, feeling like there was no time to even take one breath between the next blow that we learned to simply smile.


I written often about finding joy and sorrow -- peace in suffering.  I've heard from so many families wondering just how we do that -- the pain is so deep how can you possibly find joy?  The fear of life is suffocating -- how in the world can peace be found?

It's really so simple.  It's all a matter of a little choice.  The fear, the hurt, the anger -- it's all so normal and natural.  It's a matter of just setting it all aside, taking a deep breath and finding a smile.  You don't always need to have something to smile about -- I always believe that it I take the simple step to let go and find a little joy God will give me something to hold on to.  Choosing to believe that God directs our life path takes a whole heck of a lot of pressure off of us as incredibly flawed humans.


We may be a much less wealthy than we were just one week ago, but in reality nothing has changed.  

Another crisis over.

Another deep breath taken.

Another smile found.


Gilda said...

I hear ya Karen, it seem like issues like that just don't happen one at time they all wait to pale on you. I am glad you were able to find that smile:)

Phyllis said...

Care to share who the "we" is that got the speeding ticket? LOl just kidding. Those kinds of issues do really stink but often I feel a great sense of irony in them. These are the things we are supposed to be dealing with in life, not sick kids and shortened lifespans.

Karen Owens said...

It was totally Adam!!

jle819 said...

One of my favorite sayings is "It's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain." That's what this entry reminded me of. :)

Anonymous said...

thanks for posting that..Ive been having the same kinda week..and today I just felt so worn down by it all...thank you for the reminder to smile and breathe. You are absolutely right..nothing has changed.I just have less dough in my you
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Jade said...

Its been a while since I've made it to this blog. I hope this finds you feeling at peace. Glad your poop crisis is over. I know that septic problems can be pricey, but be honest... you've had to have smiled a time or two in mentioning the words "poop crisis" ;-)

Blessings to you