Amazing things happen in our little minivan -- lots of conversations between Madison and I that not only help pass the time but gives me an amazing glimpse into her little mind. After Gavin died Adam and I had to make some crazy decisions that we were not prepared for -- things that parents just don't ever think about. We were asked by the funeral home to provide some clothes for Gavin to be buried in. This took Adam and I completely off guard. First of all -- we choose not to see his body again after we said our last goodbye at the hospital and second -- Gavin never really wore real clothes. He was a shirt and baby legs kind of kid --- and I didn't really want to give any of his clothes away, where I could no longer hold them up to my face and try to smell my little boy's scent.
Never the less -- we picked out Gavin's red long sleeve tee and his black rock star baby legs. After the funeral director left, Adam and I kinda laughed because we wondered if the guy even knew where the baby legs went and if he was wondering where Gavin's pants were. Did they put a diaper on him? Our family has since always smiled at the thought of our little boy running around heaven in his red shirt and babylegs with his little butt sticking out!
So now that this week has brought some much needed rain it has also sparked, once again, some amazing conversations about Gavin up in heaven and how he doesn't have any pants on and he certainly must be peeing on us -- that's what all this rain is.
I know it sounds kinda crazy, but it's the little things like that that helps Madison and us heal. It's the thought that God has healed our little boy -- spared him from a life of suffering that makes us smile. 'Cause after all, Gavin couldn't pee here on Earth -- so pee from heaven is certainly something to smile about.