Tomorrow Angela will be admitted to A.I. duPont Hospital for Children for her Nissen Fundoplucation. We have been anticipating this day for a while and in many ways I'm glad it's finally here and in other ways I'm dreading every second of it.
This admission comes with so many different emotions. First off -- it stinks for Angela. A hospital stay for a three year old is a very scary thing, especially when they are not a frequent flyer. Add in the fact that Angela is visually impaired and will most likely not be able to visually comprehend the new environment, and it sends chills down my spine. I know she needs this surgery and it will greatly improve her quality of life, but this next week is going to be very difficult for us.
Then there is the other emotional level for Adam, Madison and I. The last time we were inpatient at duPont was when we last said good bye to Gavin. Ugh. Even though I've been back to the hospital more times than I can count since his death, this is a whole different ball game. It's ok. It will be nice to remember, but I'd be just plain silly to say it will not be painful and difficult on many levels.
But I know we will get through just fine. In fact, I kinda have this feeling that God will be speaking to my mommie heart on so many levels this coming week. It was because of my little boy that I am now able to be this amazing little girl's mommie. It's gonna be deep -- maybe a bit painful but gosh I know it's gonna be so stinkin beautiful.
Please keep our little princess in your prayers. Specifically pray for her mind and spirit. She has come so far in her ability to feel safe in her world, to allow people to see the real Angela and not revert inward to find comfort. Pray that God would protect her progress and make this a time of continued healing for her body. We are hoping and believing that in a few weeks Angela will be able to eat by mouth with no discomfort or vomiting. With her increased ability to eat orally will come amazing development -- and we are so excited for Angela. She deserves this and I know she will cope and recover in typical Owens style!