Life is all about process. We as a culture want everything fast -- we are an impulsive people group. But truth is very rarely does a good thing happen without a process preceding it. These past weeks have been so difficult with Jayden. There are certain behaviors that he has that developed as a result of his first two years of life that we are determined to help him overcome. These behaviors are self harming and really hold him back from reaching his full potential. We dealt with some of the same behaviors with Angela, and I think these behaviors are probably pretty common with kids like Angela and Jayden who seek sensory input and are not able to find in their environment.
It's so easy for us to just want to snap our fingers and fast forward -- but that's just not how life works. It's in the process that amazing things happen. It's so important to live in the moment and not always be wanting and hoping for the future -- we will miss out on so much! Its though our sweat and tears that amazing bonding will happen, growth will occur and love will deepen.
I know for sure God delights in process. It's during our times of waiting that our need for him is most seen. I feel like sometimes He even makes us wait longer, and maybe even with a smirk on his face, just to get us off our high horse and recognize that we simply can't do this thing called life on our own. When will we learn? When will I learn? As I said in a previous post -- I was never meant to do this alone.
Jayden is teaching me so much about myself, forcing me to slow down, reorganize and re-approach. Being a mommie to both birth and adopted children requires me to think outside the box. What works for one child will not work for another. In some ways it gives me this huge arsenal of strategies because all my children need different approaches.
I feel like I'm rambling on, and I guess I kinda am. I needed to hear this today. I need to be reminded to embrace the process. Good things are right around the corner, but if I focus so much on the future I might miss out on some amazing moments happening right now.
I'm embracing the process.