Friday, June 29, 2012

{Getting Uncomfortable}


It's so easy to be comfortable -- I think we all would agree.  I remember when we became parents for the very first time 8 years ago we had no clue what the heck we were doing.  I vividly remember bringing Madison home from the hospital.  We took her out of her car seat, swaddled her tightly in a blanket, took her back to our bedroom and placed her in the crib.  I remember Adam and I just stood at the side of her crib -- we had no freakin' clue what to do next.  


After a couple of months it got easy -- we totally figured out exactly how to handle a two month old.  But then it happened, she changed.  Once again we felt like two fish out of water, we once again were looking for tricks to make it through the next age and stage.  Now that eight years has gone by we have except the fact that we will never figure it all out.

It so easy to be comfortable in life.  So easy to finally reach  that place where you fully understand and comprehend all that life has brought you.  But here is the truth -- if we choose to stay comfortable we will never move forward.  We will never fully be able to live out the life God has destined us to have -- a life of peace, joy and hope.


This past year has been pretty darn comfortable.  Even with the addition of Jayden it just felt like a natural flow.  Yes, it was a big well thought out decision but we were so confident in the fact that we knew deep in our souls Jayden was our child we never even thought twice about calling him our own.

Things are starting to get a little uncomfortable around here.  Mainly because we feel a stirring up of something big -- something that is  just waiting for us.  We are feeling very similar to that first day home with Madison -- standing at the edge trying to figure out what in the world we do next with the journey and blessings God has handed us.


Early this year we made the decision to leave the church that was our home for many years, which you can read about by clicking here.  But now it's time to take the next step -- we need to physically move.  Our new home church is a bit of a drive and by being so far away we are not fully able to be a part of our new family.  But that's not the biggest reason -- in case you haven't noticed our family has grown -- a lot.  And dare I say we're not so sure it's done growing.  

Madison is still at such a young age and we wanted to make this big move before she gets to connected with her current school, which also applies to Angela and Jayden.  This next home is gonna be our fifteen year plus home.  This is gonna be the home to help us usher in this next season of our life.


What worries us the most is how people are going to respond.  A lot of blood, sweat and tears, not to mention money was put into this home for our family -- for Gavin, who sadly died the same day we moved in.  What I want to say in this -- we will be forever grateful to the people, to the community, that poured their hearts into Gavin's house.  Although  Gavin was never able to physically live in the house, it has been a place for Adam, Madison and I to heal and start a fresh new life keeping our little boy's legacy alive. Again, we will never forget the amazing gift this house was and is.  But with that said, it's time to leave.

It's so easy to be comfortable.  Being uncomfortable is not so fun.  But taking the first step is always the hardest -- we are trusting and believing that God is right on the other side of our crib, willing and able to guide us through this next step -- this next season.


Jennjilla said...

Good luck finding your new home!! :)

Carrie said...

When someone does something for charity, they should expect nothing back but the gratitude of helping another. The help they provided you can never be repaid but your decision to move on ( literally) should only make others feel blessed they contributed to your family's healing. I know this does not always happen but being a semi local follower, I hope that the community wishes you well on your journey.

Beth said...

So happy for you guys! Praying you will find just the right home for your family. Just out of curiosity, what is your new church?

Karen Owens said...

@beth -- we are at Glad Tidings (GT) in West Lawn. We love it there and it's a great fit for our family!

Sue said...

We have a ton in common! Loved coming by to "meet" you.