I'm gonna let you in on a little secret — I'm not perfect. Ok, so you probably already figured that one out, but for some reason I find myself needing to remind my own type A brain this obvious fact more often than I care to admit.
This week I joined a gym. We recently left the gym where we have called home this past fall. Logistically, it just wasn't working for us anymore. Its location was in the very opposite direction of where we now live most of our life. My body, although not too aged, is certainly not as, shall we say, spunky as it once was and not having adequate physically activity had left its toll. I have been feeling tired and just plain old gross.
This is where it's gets interesting. I love to work out. I love challenging myself to go beyond my physical capacity and get into that mental zone — so one would think that I would have no issue continuing my journey towards health at a new location. Wrong.
I have issues with newness. I simply don't like to be uncomfortable. I crave control.
Adam and I sat in the living room and I spilled out all my irrational fears. When I said them out loud, things like, the front desk clerk will be able to identify by the flabbiness of my gut just how long it's been since I ran, suddenly didn't seem so rational anymore.
I realized that the only thing keeping me from my goals is one thing...
Ugh, I hate that.
Did you ever have those moments where you see others succeeding around you and you come up with all the reasons they surely must be sinning to have achieved such great success. Obviously, they must be neglecting there children, or they totally went into debt following their dream. Why do we do that? Even if at times it's true — who the heck cares?
What matters is the very dreams God has placed in my soul. Do you have one? I have a few. And you want to guess what is keeping me from perusing a few of those God given goals? You guessed it — me. No more.
This weekend I not only signed up for the gym, but I went. When I got in my van to go home God gently reminded me of this — big things are coming, but you need to do the work. Go after the things I burned deep in your soul and simply get out of the way— out of my way.
Don't walk towards your dreams — run.
So simple. We are our biggest problem and obstacle. Today I'm choosing to run towards my dreams, and if you have seen me run, it may not be pretty, I may even trip over my own two feet, but I'm gonna keep moving forward.
Today I'm getting out of the way.