I'm gonna let you in on a little secret — I'm not perfect. Ok, so you probably already figured that one out, but for some reason I find myself needing to remind my own type A brain this obvious fact more often than I care to admit.
This week I joined a gym. We recently left the gym where we have called home this past fall. Logistically, it just wasn't working for us anymore. Its location was in the very opposite direction of where we now live most of our life. My body, although not too aged, is certainly not as, shall we say, spunky as it once was and not having adequate physically activity had left its toll. I have been feeling tired and just plain old gross.
This is where it's gets interesting. I love to work out. I love challenging myself to go beyond my physical capacity and get into that mental zone — so one would think that I would have no issue continuing my journey towards health at a new location. Wrong.
I have issues with newness. I simply don't like to be uncomfortable. I crave control.
Adam and I sat in the living room and I spilled out all my irrational fears. When I said them out loud, things like, the front desk clerk will be able to identify by the flabbiness of my gut just how long it's been since I ran, suddenly didn't seem so rational anymore.
I realized that the only thing keeping me from my goals is one thing...
Me.
Ugh, I hate that.
Did you ever have those moments where you see others succeeding around you and you come up with all the reasons they surely must be sinning to have achieved such great success. Obviously, they must be neglecting there children, or they totally went into debt following their dream. Why do we do that? Even if at times it's true — who the heck cares?
What matters is the very dreams God has placed in my soul. Do you have one? I have a few. And you want to guess what is keeping me from perusing a few of those God given goals? You guessed it — me. No more.
This weekend I not only signed up for the gym, but I went. When I got in my van to go home God gently reminded me of this — big things are coming, but you need to do the work. Go after the things I burned deep in your soul and simply get out of the way— out of my way.
Don't walk towards your dreams — run.
So simple. We are our biggest problem and obstacle. Today I'm choosing to run towards my dreams, and if you have seen me run, it may not be pretty, I may even trip over my own two feet, but I'm gonna keep moving forward.
Today I'm getting out of the way.
4 comments:
Thank you for this post. I needed it. I lost out on a big job today and was told I was overqualified for another. The bad thing is the first thing I want to do is slam the door on God's face out of frustration. It's so hard to accept that maybe the hard work I'm putting in is for something greater, bigger, perfectly me. But I'm impatient! Come on already! :)
This is good stuff and true, I have said it before that the biggest obstacle in my life is between my ears. I have prayed some big and bold prayers and now God is answering them and I flounder to get myself in gear to do my part. I preach it over and over to my guys group in RL that their faith is not going to grow on it's own they have to put it to work, just like they would never step on the court or field without practicing and hitting the gym first it's the same with their faith. Some reason I can teach it well but get lazy in my own way. Not lazy in my faith but lazy when it comes to fighting for the blessing God has placed in front of me. I just want it handed to me. I want us to be in position financially so that in a few years when the kids go to school we have the option of my wife not working so God gives me a job with the opportunity to work over time every other weekend and do it but now i'm saying why did I pray for that. Should have just asked God to do it for me another way, now he has put it back on me. darn it this means I actually have to fight for what I want. then the more i think about it I feel even worse because so many people are not even working right now and I have been blessed with this job. But I will take my own advice and your and actually get to work fighting for what I want, my joy and strength will come for him as always and he will be glorified through it.
Simply wow... I have been doing the same thing! You just put it all in words. thanks for the words of motivation and encouragement!
Lindsey
Thanks a lot for the motivation, at the moment I really need that in my struggling time.
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