I have a really cool job -- well, actually I have many jobs, but the one I get paid for is pretty darn cool. For those who don't know, I work for our local church doing many types of script and creative writing, design, a little bit of photography and also a dash of social media. It's pretty much a dream job for a girl like me. Best part is, in everything I do the main goal is this -- to push people closer to Jesus Christ. Every Christian has this job but not all of us get to do it directly, so I consider it a huge honor to be in the place and position I am in for this season of life.
Anyway, these past few months I have been doing a photography project trying to capture moments within the walls of our church. This past week I finished up and got to take a look through all the images I was able to capture. To no surprise I had a lot of my family -- do you blame me? They are pretty fun to catch on film. I put aside some of the photos of my family and took a moment to look a bit closer and had a little moment. You know, a heart swelling with pride kind of moment. Interestingly enough, Madi is not in most of these photos -- which actually fills me with even more pride that she has grown into a social and confident girl, a bit difficult to catch on camera.
As I sat looking at these photos my heart and soul were once again filled with an amazing peace and joy -- I look at these photos and I feel so much love, so much pride and I'm overwhelmed at just exactly how we got here. These photos are not my typical family photos that we kinda set up and plan -- these are a capture of our every day life. This is what we look like when we step outside our home -- and I really like what I see.
I got to thinking.
How amazing would it be to have just one moment where we could see ourselves and our family through God's eyes. I'm not sure we truly understand how much pride and love He feels when the thought of our existence crosses his mind. In my human heart, I feel so much love it's almost unbearable -- how much more does He love us with a limitless heart? A heart so big is holds enough room for all of humanity.
How much does He love that He would give breath and life to a child, His son, then watch him die a painful long death on a cross. I know what that pain feels like. I know what it means to watch your child slowly die -- and to think He did that for me, for my family, for you -- that He chose that.
I want to look through his eyes at who I am and who I have become. If I could truly comprehend his endless love for me, my every step would be filled with such conviction and hope.
I know a bit of this love -- but I want to know more.
I need to know more.